Though I’m feeling light headed and breathless, I still think of you.. Wondering how the haze is affecting you, wondering if you are feeling alright… So I stop resisting the Yee to text you and decided to tell you to take care of your health and drink more water… And all you can say is “you too”. It was a 5year relationship after all… And that’s all you can say.
June 2013
I thought I was okay. I thought I could move on.. But what am I suppose to do when all I think abt is you? Even my dreams won’t spare me. Even when I try to start on a new book, I can’t focus…. I thought by playing some games would keep you out of my mind. But the games reminds me of you….
Why do you keep coming into my dreams every single night? I don’t wanna wake up because of that
What are you up to?? I really miss you
Every kiss, every touch, every hug we shared, I’ll never forget
I miss you.. But I dare not text you anymore. I don’t want you to hate me.
This week seem to pass extremely slowly. I look forward to weekends because that’s when we get to spend time with each other. Now I have nothing to look forward to.. Everything seems like a drag. Waking up, going to work, buying lunch, going home. Even eating is a drag… You were the only constant in my life.. But change too is constant. And you changed. My only constant changed.
Whenever I see smth interesting, I instinctively think of showing you.
Because I know that deep in my heart, I don’t wanna forget you. Deep in my heart, I still yearn for your love. I know that it would kill me to see you with someone else in your arms. Deep in my heart, i wish that years from now, the person in your arms would be me. You were so good to me. You were the best I could have ever asked for.
I want to tell that I’m fine. I’m getting better at not crying over you. I want to tell you that you don’t have to worry abt me anymore.. But I’m afraid that once I tell you all these, I will go back to the state I was once in.
